Science Fiction doesn’t have revolve around interstellar conflict and war for the fate of the world. Enter stage “The Left Hand of Darkness”.

The Left Hand of DarknessThe Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

3 years ago this month, I had my first exposure to Ursula Le Guin through her foundational novel, The Dispossessed. The way Le Guin demonstrated her understanding of humanity in a future world was inspiring and beautiful. It was all I needed to become the type of fan that would buy a book of Le Guin interviews.

Two years ago, Tracy gifted me the Le Guin’s other famous novel for my birthday: The Left Hand of Darkness. I had put it aside in favor of other types of Science Fiction & Fantasy, but I’m glad to have made my way back to this book.

The Left Hand of Darkness is neither about hands nor darkness. It is a story of our traveler/ambassador Genly Ai exploring the frozen world of Gethen, and realizing the beauty of duality of all things in life. Light always casts a shadow. Wisdom isn’t necessarily in knowing, but also unknowing. In Gethen, male and female are two states of a single androgynous being.

This duality doesn’t mean the Gethen are more enlightened, more sophisticated, more intelligent than our traveler’s world. The Gethen civilizations are less technologically advanced than Genly’s home, and they struggle with a variety of internal and external political conflicts. However, Genly is a stranger to this world, and we follow his culture shock and slow acclimation with Gethen philosophy, which we hope isn’t too little too late.

Le Guin is the gold standard of soft science fiction, for which the science is unexplainable yet the world feels so tangible and at your fingertips. Her books don’t focus on physics, or known biology, or chemistry or political science outside few simple anchors. Her books care about our humanity, in a way that can only be expressed by the book itself.

A classic like Left Hand of Darkness has been reviewed to death, but the one I really loved was Becky Chamber’s article in 2018, in which she noted “This book changed me, in the sort of way that only books can do. It’s the catalyst that pushed me from being a fan of science fiction to wanting to write it myself.” Chambers’ article resonated in a way that makes me excited to read some of her works of science fiction. Other great supplemental pieces have been Le Guin’s New Yorker interview in 2009, the book introduction/foreword that’s one of the best I’ve ever read, a pretty solid summary on Tor, and for those of you cheapstakes it seems like the full text is easily discoverable online as well.

“The Score Takes Care of Itself” – an intellectually honest deconstruction of leadership success in football and life

6342995. sy475 The Score Takes Care of Itself is a book leads us through the principles and self-reflections of one of the most successful coaches in NFL history – Bill Walsh of the 49ers. It is an intellectually honest deconstruction of what he believes made him successful, deep introspection of his successes and failures, and an array of coldly efficient, business-like bullet-point conclusions each of his principles.

Even though a basic knowledge of football will help internalize Walsh’s anecdotes, this is a book about leadership and professionalism first, with football a distant second. The title, “The Score Takes Care of Itself” refers to a simple philosophy that if you build a strong culture, the winning will come.

Walsh wasn’t perfect. He exhibited a tremendous ego, severed relationships throughout his tenure, and ultimately burned out as he spiraled into an exhausted depression in his final coaching years. Even in the book, he comes off as difficult to work with, has phases of blatant micromanagement, and is wholly unapologetic in some controversial decisions.

On the flip side, he was immensely introspective and truly cared about the people around him. He was thoughtful about his perception amongst the team and outsiders. He expected excellence from 49ers customer support agents and janitors. His platonic self-ideal was to be the best teacher and grow the people around him.

It is up to the reader to decide for themselves what lessons are applicable to them versus those specific to Walsh’s personality. I believe this book is super valuable to leaders who have seen success doing similar things to Walsh in their own lives (i.e. setting high standards of excellence, decisive decision making, focusing on positive reinforcement) but are looking to round out other parts of their leadership philosophy.

Ultimately, this book was published posthumously as a reader-friendly distillation of his magnum opus in 1997, “Finding the Winning Edge“. That book is no longer published and goes anywhere from $100 to $1000 in the used market. As I dug, I appreciated an ESPN piece from 2013: The book of coach that reflects on Walsh’s perfectionism and angst.

But in 2004, he was diagnosed with leukemia, and the project got derailed. Three years later, when his life was measured in days, not months, one of the last things he told Craig was “Finish this book.” Craig, along with a co-writer, did just that. The Score Takes Care of Itself was 250 pages and hit shelves in 2009. It’s not in every coach’s office. (The book of coach, ESPN 2013)

The book is a quote machine (I had 103 highlights) – and any more would have resulted in highlighting the whole book. That being said, a summary would not do justice to a book already distilled to its core. It would be no better than looking at a bottle fine whiskey as a substitute for drinking a glass. All I can provide are a sampling of some quotes that help me anchor and remember lessons from the book.

On continuous winning

One section later in the book that I believe is a unique experience for Walsh is his introspection on maintaining motivation when you start winning, especially winning big:

More people are more familiar with losing than with winning. Consequently, losing is not that difficult to deal with, in the sense that we’ve all faced it, lived it, and are familiar with the fallout it can produce. We have seen people lose heart, self-destruct, turn on one another, and become disloyal. We know the whole syndrome of losing, but leaders often don’t think very much about the other side of the coin—winning; especially winning big.

This response—being knocked off balance emotionally and mentally—is one of the fundamental reasons it is so difficult to continue winning; it’s true in business as in sports. Repeat winners at the high end of competition are rare, because when success of any magnitude occurs, there is a disorienting change that we are unprepared for. I, too, was somewhat thrown off by our first Super Bowl victory.

When you reach a large goal or finally get to the top, the distractions and new assumptions can be dizzying. First comes heightened confidence, followed quickly by overconfidence, arrogance, and a sense that “we’ve mastered it; we’ve figured it out; we’re golden.” But the gold can tarnish quickly. Mastery requires endless remastery.

In later years, when he won so much that the baseline expectation was nonstop winning:

The pursuit of the prize had become an exercise in avoiding pain; the expectations had become unattainable; the behavior of our owner had become—on occasion—unacceptable; and the responsibilities I took on, coupled with the pressure I put on myself, were unmanageable.

On Motivation

There are a ton of ways Walsh thought about motivating a high performing group of people, here are some tidbits.

Few things offer greater return on less investment than praise—offering credit to someone in your organization who has stepped up and done the job.

The most powerful way to do this is by having the courage to say, “I believe in you,” in whatever words and way are comfortable for you. These four words—or their equivalents—constitute the most inspirational message a leader can convey.

And always keep this in mind: Nobody will ever come back to you later and say “thank you” for expecting too little of them.

When the bottom 20 percent is dissatisfied—doesn’t feel they’re a real part of your team, that is, appreciated—their comments, perspective, and reactions—their “bitching”—is seen, heard, and absorbed by those who are positive and productive.

On buying time

Walsh didn’t win immediately when he became the 49ers coach, but found ways to buy time to build his foundation.

Positive results—winning—count most. But until those results come through your door, a heavy dose of documentation relating to what you’ve done and what you’re doing, planning to do, and hoping to do may buy you just enough extra time to actually do it.

In planning for a successful future, the past can show you how to get there. Too often we avert our gaze when that past is unpleasant.

In a way, an organization is like an automobile assembly line; it must be first class or the cars that come off it will be second rate. The exceptional assembly line comes first, before the quality car. My Standard of Performance was establishing a better and better “assembly line.” We were becoming a first-class organization in all areas.

On focus

It is easy to go for quick wins instead of tackling the hard problems:

Sharpening pencils in lieu of sharpening your organization’s performance is one way to lose your job. […] You use the peripheral stuff as an escape mechanism, rather than tackling what may appear, and indeed may be, unsolvable problems until finally you’re done, finished, sitting there with nothing to show for your leadership efforts but a cup of sharp pencils.


My 2018 SciFi/Fantasy Reading In Review

I didn’t really care much for science fiction/fantasy until a ‘holy shit, this is so good moment’ when finishing the Three Body Problem series last year. That’s when the reading binge started. Science Fiction & Fantasy still gets a bit of a bad reputation of being made for young adults – but I believe the reverse. I appreciate them now much more than I did as a teen.

Science Fiction is beautiful because it is set in a world we don’t know – a world that only comes alive from an author’s humongous effort of internally consistent world building. They are designing a world that doesn’t exist yet, with rules humanity hasn’t quite figured out. Often times truth becomes stranger than fiction, but their imaginations help us prepare for a changing world.

Fantasy is no longer just about the dragons and mages and dwarves and elves (though those elements don’t necessarily take away from a great book). It explores the how humans would behave when approached with higher powers and unknown truths. It tells the story of individual doggedness or cowardice, treachery or integrity, all simply in a new world.

For all its philosophical and sociological merits, Science Fiction & Fantasy (SFF) are also simply fun. Stories include space travel, AI, gravity manipulation, catapulting rocks from moon to earth, talking to gods, killing gods, and much more. That we can live vicariously through the imaginations of so many authors is a real luxury in this prolific era.

I’d happily recommend nearly all of the ~30 or so books I’ve read this year. I’ll start with the top 5, and move on to the rest below:

My Top 5 in 2018

Entertainment quality is always a function of when you consume it, and in 2018 these are my reads that stood out to me the most:

1. The Divine Cities (City of Stairs, City of Blades, City of Miracles)
Robert Jackson Bennett

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Murder mystery. Religious insurgency. Fantasy with a democratic political system for once. Huge nordic killer secretary. Main character is diplomat and her ex-boyfriend is now a gay millionaire with hip problems. City built on magic but the magic disappears… or is the magic actually there? And that’s just book one. Book 2 is even better as it stars a grumpy old woman who’s also a retired general grappling with atrocities she committed back in the day. Book 3 features the killer secretary.

Each book in the series has its own endings, and the books are several years apart. But Book 3 really closes out the whole thing in a way you can’t miss.


2. Stories of Your Life and Others
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Ted Chiang’s collection of short stories are sharp, imaginative, and just well written across a variety of styles. I had to re-read the entire collection one week after finishing because it was just that good. From the beautiful flagship story “Story of your Life” (source for the 2016 movie Arrival) to a world where people consider equalizing society’s perception of beauty in “Liking What you See”, Chiang’s short stories are a great way to plug into a world of imagination. Full review here.


3. World of Five Gods #1 & 2 (The Curse of Chalion,  Paladin of Souls)
Lois McMaster Bujold

If you had told me a god-fearing feudalistic fantasy society sounds lame, I would have agreed. The Curse of Chalion proved me wrong.


It all starts with a broken man (don’t they all, these days?). It is about a broken man slowly gaining his voice against the powerful lords that had left him to the enemy. He’s terrified of meeting his betrayers in a social setting, but builds this voice through a desire to protect his new princess/queen as her secretary. Oh and there’s this gravitational curse that makes things difficult for everybody.

The sequel, Paladin of Souls has its own pacing that is equally thrilling, and totally weird. This involves a middle-aged empty woman going on a pilgrimage, getting the hots for a sexy zombie soldier, and proceeding to unravel all sorts of weird stuff. You must read the first to even remotely enjoy the second, but I think they are both worth a solid read.


4. Star Wars: Thrawn
Timothy Zahn


Star Wars can get whatever childish reputation it wants, but the stories of Thrawn and Arhinda Pryce are intriguing, satisfying, and foreboding. Zahn tells us two stories of imperial newbies making their way up the political ranks of the empire through diplomacy and war strategy. Arhinda begins her descent into a brutal mindset and the willing betrayal of loved ones to do the Empire’s dirty work. Thrawn, on the other hand, taps into his genius and military experience in the previous war to realize his potential as straight-shooting Admiral. Both are great human stories. Full review here.


5. Rendezvous with Rama
Arthur C. Clarke


If you are only going to read one scifi book – don’t read this one. There are much funner ones out there. But if you want to take a break from political drama or epic adventures, Rendezvous with Rama gives us the nature documentary with just a dab of mystery and suspense to keep the pages turning. As a set of astronauts explore a mysterious country-sized object, they discover a land that is beautifully elegant but deceptively treacherous. This has the #5 spot because there is simply nothing else like it.



The “Really Good” books

I don’t know how to rank these, so I’ll categorize them instead. I think all of these were enjoyable and expanding in their own way. A lot of the science fiction here is written in the “golden age of science fiction” between ~1935 to ~1970 with the big three: Asimov, Clarke, and Heinlein. Looking past the way society is portrayed, they all had rightfully great ideas. Then came Gibson with Neuromancer and Stephenson with some crazy ideas. 

The industry feels like it had a bit of a lull with all its dystopias, but it is now gearing up faster than ever. (I have no evidence that this isn’t biased by the recency of my interests, but I *think* it’s true). With GRRM, Sanderson, RJB, Jemisin, the modern wave of books are relatable, gritty, and ultimately enable us to expand our imaginations. Here are the other books I read this year that I really do like. 

Fantasy World Building

  • Warbreaker (Brandon Sanderson) – You really can’t go wrong with Sanderson. And you can eat color in this one.
  • Foundryside (RJB) – new book was a solid story. Thievery and objects that have coding and coding abstractions all stemming from some crazy old magic.
  • Mistborn: The Final Empire (Series, all 3) (Brandon Sanderson) – Perennial ending world, social classes, cool magic system, brainless zombies, tall nerd great stuff from Sanderson. (full review)
  • The Way of Shadows (Brent Weeks) – Magical Assassins and an unstable assassin teacher.

Futuristic Society

  • The Diamond Age (Neal Stephenson) – Nanotech 3D printers gone wild.
  • The Moon Is a Harsh Mistress (Robert Heinlein) – AI-assisted moon revolution.
  • All Systems Red (The Murderbot Diaries, #1) (Martha Wells) – Awkward rogue robot who hacked himself “off the grid” decides whether to stay awkward save his human “friends”.
  • The Caves of Steel (Robot, #1) (Issac Asimov) – AI taking our (detective) jobs.
    This is a very different Asimov compared to when when he wrote his famous Foundation series.  The Caves of Steel doesn’t have the sheer scale of his older books, but makes it up in a creative plot and much more developed characters.

Futuristic War

  • The Ghost Brigades (John Scalzi) – Brain-accelerated special forces with infant minds in adult bodies. In space. Second book in “Old Man’s War”
  • Starship Troopers (Robert Heinlein) – Blasting bugs as part of a militaristic society. Also Mobile Infantry mech suits jumping one mile at a time blasting bugs. Sounds cliche now but this was the first of its kind in 1959.
  • The Forever War (Joe Haldeman) – Time relativity creates a defensive technological advantage and forgotten soldiers for civilizations lightyears apart. Similar scene as Starship Troopers but it’s lesson is the opposite, published in 1974.



The OK Books

I wouldn’t not recommend these books, but I think they disappointed a little bit.

  • American Gods (Neil Gaiman) – This book is expansive, well-researched, and uniquely American. Something about it felt weird – maybe it felt more like a TV series than a fantasy novel.
  • Invisible Planets: Contemporary Chinese Science Fiction in Translation (Multiple authors) – Chinese science fiction short stories. Great ideas from promising Chinese authors. (full review)
  • Sabriel (Abhorsen, #1) (Garth Nix)A young girl suddenly inherits her father’s responsibility of navigating and banishing monsters to the underworld. Great worldbuilding, relatively basic plot – good YA fiction.
  • Consider Phlebas (Culture, #1) (Iain Banks) – a great adventure & worldbuilding but feels like a Han Solo running around, messing stuff up, and walking away as everything explodes behind them.
  • Second Foundation(Foundation #3) (Issac Asimov) Just like the rest of his foundation series. ultra-intellectual characters duking it out in a psychic chess match. (full review)
  • The Poppy War (R. F. Kuang) – Chinese post-war history piece where psychedelics help you summon gods. Decent idea but is a bit *too* trope-y and takes too much from high school history books.


What’s on the docket?

There are so many books out there that building a repertoire of Scifi/Fantasy is a multi-year effort. Reddit has a solid poll of top series here that serves as a solid guidepost. So far sitting in my Kindle are…

  • Seveneves – Neal Stephenson’s book about new life – this has been highly rated by some people and finally got around to buying it! Then there’s Anathem, Crpytonmicon, etc. but I’m going to pace out my Stephenson.
  • The Left Hand of Darkness – Ursula le Guin is a genius and now that I write this, I should read this.
  • Assassin’s Apprentice – Robin Hobb’s series apparently is a great adventure.
  • The Wheel of Time – a 14 book epic that might be tough to get started.
  • The Player of Games – Apparently better than the first in the series. We shall see.
  • Permutation City/Diaspora – Apparently Greg Egan books are extremely technical and well-researched.
  • Red Mars – DNF 50% – Brilliant book, brilliantly researched and imagined but ultimately aimless. 
  • Red Rising – DNF 10% – Hear great things about it
  • Stranger in a Strange Land – DNF 60%


I don’t read fantasy/scifi. But if I had only one book to read…”

For Fantasy, it would be either the Stormlight Archives, the Divine Cities, or a shorter book Hyperion. For science fiction, I think it is increasingly tough to get into the classics. I would start with Chiang’s Stories of your Life and Others (which is more fantasy), the Three Body Problem (whole series or bust!). The Moon is a Harsh Mistress is a fun starter as well for an older one.

Thanks for reading and hope you all have a great 2019!

Learning how to feel about World War I

This past week, Tracy and I had a chance to visit major battlegrounds of Ypres, Somme, Verdun for the centennial of the WW1 armistice. If you have the chance, I highly recommend it. The memorials, cemeteries, and battlefields are accessible and well-traveled over the past 100 years.

World War One Armistice Day was Nov 11, 1918 – exactly 100 years ago.

This was the war to end all wars. The war America was part of but not too much, so we don’t learn much about it as WW2. The war where multiple countries had gone all in, in a geopolitical poker match costing over 15 million human souls.

But geopolitics is one thing. Seeing the gravestones is another.

A 26 year old private from Lancashire Infantry. An unknown soldier from the Australian Engineers. An American from Michigan, killed on Nov 10, the day before peace. Individual gravestones hold stories told, lost, and retold to help us remember that each of the individuals killed in World War I had their own sorrows and family left behind.

Hundreds of small military cemeteries are scattered around the farmlands of these battlefields. I have no idea how many there are, but our visit aimed to pay our respects to the most significant in the time we had.

We started in Ypres, a small Belgian city near the French/Belgium border that saw heavy fighting. It wasn’t just a single battle – the first, second and third battles of Ypres happened in 1914, 1915, and 1917.

Tyne Cot Memorial Service

Our highlight was a ceremonial burial of two unidentified Australian soldiers at the Tyne Cot Cemetery (the remains had only recently been excavated). 100 years later, the respect of WWI soldiers holds strong. We also stopped by Essex Farm Cemetery (location of the famous poem “In Flanders Fields“), the Vancouver Corner at St. Julien where a Canadian unit defended against the first use of gas warfare, and finally a german cemetery in Langemark that showed us a flash of equal and opposite tragedy.

At Ypres, busses of Belgian schoolchildren visited the same battlefields and cemeteries to get early education of the Great War. I hope they visit again, and again as their world views evolve.

The next stop was the Somme, where British troops went over the top to their deaths in an initially disastrous offensive. We listened to Dan Carlin’s (apparently amateur) WW1 podcast as we drove between the memorials of Beaumont-Hamel, Thiepval, Pozières, and Delville Wood. All were powerful in their own way – the names of 70,000 missing soldiers engraved on Theipval’s massive memorial will be especially hard to forget.

Thiepval Memorial – 70,000 missing soldiers engraved in its walls

Two and a half hours away was Verdun, a beautiful forest of death. The Douaumont Ossuary is one of the largest and most powerful French memorials – over 10000 white crosses lay in perfect grids overlooking autumn oaks. Equally beautiful was the Meuse-Argonne cemetery 45 minutes away, the tribute to American soldiers who laid down their lives for the final offensive to win the war. 16000 bodies lay in 8 perfectly organized blocks in the largest WW1 American memorial. The symmetry is mesmerizing.

On our last day, we tried to visit Vimy Ridge and Armistice Glade in Compiègne. We realized too late that PM Trudeau was honoring the Canadian effort at Vimy Ridge, and French PM Macron had reserved the day for the glade. Disappointing, but understandable as there is only one centennial to share.



First Australian Division Memorial in Ponzieres

Vancouver Corner at St. Julien – Where Canadians held off the one of the first German gas attacks.

Delville Woods – South African Monument

Douaumont Memorial in Verdun


Cemeteries, Memorials, Battlefields, Museums. Often they had similar designs and content. Museums always had visuals of western front battle lines and every one had uniforms. Gravestones were standardized and regimented. Memorials were statues with obituaries. A preserved trench pretty much looked like what you’d expect.

But this repetition didn’t have a boring effect. The repetition gave a persistent reminder of human tragedy, zoomed in and out. From the geopolitical and strategic analysis in museums, to the common trench experience, to individual stories of loss and grief, we could then back out to memorials where we could viscerally understand each other’s loss and respects.

We can extract geopolitical predictions from historical trends to warn against economic impact of potential war in our future lifetime. But in my opinion the biggest deterrent is looking upon these graves and the gravity of millions of individual stories that were cut short and never told.

All major WWI Commonwealth Memorials include a block with the quote “Their name liveth for evermore”

“Thrawn” is a breath of fresh Star Wars air.

Timothy Zahn’s new book, Thrawn (April 2017) is a brilliant novel to stand against the string of relatively weak Star Wars movies that have been coming out these past few years. (Note, it is on sale for $1.99 for the next 5 days)

I love this book because it is strategic but simple to understand. It gives complexity to characters that become villains of the Star Wars galaxy. It has smart allies and antagonists across the board, and is often a political, military, and social battle of equals with their own strengths and weaknesses. Thrawn is a brilliant strategist but terrible politician. Arhinda, the second “protagonist” is a brilliant bureaucrat but overly paranoid and is all too willing to change loyalties when advantageous for her.

Interspersed between the chapters is Thrawn’s monologue or thoughts. They are pithy and feel like they belong in Sun Tzu’s “The Art of War”. Yet they are never cheesy and I think we’d do well today to follow them:

All people have regrets. Warriors are no exceptions. One would hope it was possible to distinguish between events caused by one’s carelessness or lack of ability and those caused by circumstances or forces beyond one’s control. But in practice, there is no difference. All forms of regret sear equally deeply into the mind and soul. All forms leave scars of equal bitterness.

In Arihnda Pryce, you can see where seemingly innocent but ambitious behavior transforms into shades of manipulation and cruelty. I love her character development so much.

In Thrawn, you see an internal struggle of being part of a genocidal empire that helps keep the peace in the Star Wars universe. Thrawn is a good guy on the wrong side, believing in stability above all else. His interactions with our main character, Eli, show that rather than being driven by paranoia, Thrawn is driven by principle and loyalty to his friends.

A friend need not be kept either within sight or within reach. A friend must be allowed the freedom to find and follow his own path.

Timothy Zahn wrote the original Thrawn books has done a great job tying in the post-Disney Star Wars with the “Legend Extended Universe” that is made “not canon”. I haven’t read the original Thrawn books, but hope to get to them as soon as possible. This is very well written YA, and makes me want to dive head-first into the Star Wars universe.

Asimov’s “Second Foundation” continues his streak of simple characters but brilliant imagination

Asimov’s third book of his Foundation series – “Second Foundation” is a 4 star book, purely on merit of the strategic climax pulled off in the story. I think it is worth a read to experience the story, but it suffers from the same things as his previous books in the series: static characters and very simplistic storylines.

Two thoughts here:

  1. The second foundation reminds me of the one of those stories that have a ton of story and backstory… just to set up the big pun (in this case a strategic stroke of brilliance). 
  2. It also reminds me of a big chess game with grand strokes. He effectively believes in Great people and naively focuses on a small subset of people that “change the course of history”. People prepare their chess moves in advance, and proceed to out-duel each other in a series of “i think you think i think” battles.

It’s hard to explain why Asimov is not a beautiful writer, but the stories always feel transactional, the twists forced, and sides with heavily unfair advantages. There’s little nuance to the books, and it all feels like a mediocre storyline that carries you over to the Little Twist, and then the Big Twist.

Overall I enjoy Asimov’s vision, themes and the diversity in which people engage with the “greater purpose” of the Seldon plan. Some people become complacent, while others become skeptical, and others fanatical. He uses generational gaps as a tool to refresh characters and show that sometimes the lessons of the past are forgotten.

Asimov was only 22 when he wrote this genre-defining “Foundation” series. I’ll attribute to his youth the brilliant imagination but simple understanding of human nature in this series. Despite whatever criticism is commonly leveled against Asimov, he rightfully deserves being one of the “big three” science fiction authors.


Thoughts on “Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck”

Mark Manson’s “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck” is a popular book with a catchy title and filled with lots of f bombs to live up to the title. Most friends’ reviews were along the lines of “despite the title this is actually a thoughtful and useful book”. I agree with this assessment.

The book is probably not worth $15 or whatever the retail is, but is a good reminder for the millennial generation not to be special entitled snowflakes and be intentional about what we care about.

What I really got of this is various ways in which entitlement creeps into our lives, including mine.

The deeper the pain, the more helpless we feel against our problems, and the more entitlement we adopt to compensate for those problems. This entitlement plays out in one of two ways: 1. I’m awesome and the rest of you all suck, so I deserve special treatment. 2. I suck and the rest of you are all awesome, so I deserve special treatment.

Entitlement and indignation then come hand in hand:

“Victimhood chic” is in style on both the right and the left today, among both the rich and the poor. In fact, this may be the first time in human history that every single demographic group has felt unfairly victimized simultaneously. And they’re all riding the highs of the moral indignation that comes along with it.

These kinds of topics are difficult to articulate, but Manson manages to elicit nods rather than provoke defensiveness. Instead of making the reader think “fuck you, I’ve tried this and it doesn’t work”, it made me try to map his words to situations I’ve seen in my life. At another angle, it was presented in a way that didn’t blame a global epidemic, but expressed ways to live your own life.

Aside from entitlement, the rest of the book is around values, choice, and how to handle the inevitability of death. A lot of these are relatively cliche, but do well to round out the book.

Manson’s method of operation involves stories and anecdotes from his life, history, and mythology – the stories are illustrative, but not comprehensive. Manson’s goal is not to create a perfectly defensible argument for his life guidelines, but rather to enable us to draw connections between our own experiences and his themes. It’s easy to pick out inconsistencies in his logic, but that isn’t necessarily the point.


All the quotes I highlighted are on my goodreads, but here are a few ones that were useful takeaways for me

On uncertainty

Why uncertainty isn’t always a bad thing, and how to manage it as an asset rather than a liability.

Uncertainty removes our judgments of others; it preempts the unnecessary stereotyping and biases that we otherwise feel when we see somebody on TV, in the office, or on the street. Uncertainty also relieves us of our judgment of ourselves. We don’t know if we’re lovable or not; we don’t know how attractive we are; we don’t know how successful we could potentially become. The only way to achieve these things is to remain uncertain of them and be open to finding them out through experience.

An illustrative but not comprehensive anecdote

Here, he’s not saying Russia is the best model to follow, but that the perspective isn’t black and white.

But, in the “free” West, my Russian teacher continued, there existed an abundance of economic opportunity—so much economic opportunity that it became far more valuable to present yourself in a certain way, even if it was false, than to actually be that way.

On f bombs

An example of the litany of f-bombs scattered throughout the book. But useful ones.

What Becker is saying, in essence, is that we’re all driven by fear to give way too many fucks about something, because giving a fuck about something is the only thing that distracts us from the reality and inevitability of our own death.

On taking either no responsibility or too much responsibility

This is something that I know i do all the time – it’s good to have validation that it is a legitimate problem and to be taken seriously.

In general, entitled people fall into one of two traps in their relationships. Either they expect other people to take responsibility for their problems: “I wanted a nice relaxing weekend at home. You should have known that and canceled your plans.” Or they take on too much responsibility for other people’s problems: “She just lost her job again, but it’s probably my fault because I wasn’t as supportive of her as I could have been. I’m going to help her rewrite her résumé tomorrow.”

Ted Chiang’s “Story of your life and Others” hits hard with sharp prose and provoking worlds

Overall thoughts

I just re-read Ted Chiang’s “Story of your life and Others” this weekend after reading it for the first time 3 weeks ago. It is now upped form a 4 to a 4.5 after having taken the time to digest his stories and ideas.

Ted Chiang is 5/5 for his ideas. 5/5 for opening up my mind and exposing ideas that I would never have thought about. 4.5/5 for writing, and characters. Every bit of fantastical world-building was lived in by beautifully written characters.

I’d put him at 3/5 for storytelling and his story arcs. The stories often have unsatisfying endings. I feel they collapse in the absurdity of these worlds taken to their logical (and crazy) conclusions. But you are so sucked into the novel world that is easy to forgive the imperfect story arcs. 

Chiang’s stories are nuanced and technical in a way that if you don’t read carefully or understand the science, you can miss the point of the story entirely. I gained more by googling online after I read each story to confirm what actually happened. Chiang’s characters are pushed and pulled with flaws in moral compass, ego, ignorance, or the simply the hand they’re dealt in the randomness of the universe.

I liked all the stories, but my favorite three were the emotional power of “Story of your life”,  the humorous yet powerful “Hell is the Absence of God” and creative cross-section of our life and values in “Liking what you see”.

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Short Stories

Tower of Babylon

The “Tower of Babylon” is a fantasy world of a Tower being built to reach the heavens. The Tower passes the sun and stars, but has reached a physical ceiling. Our our protagonists are miners contracted to break the barrier from Earth to Heaven. What does it mean to try to reach god? In the end, this was a solid story, and it really exists for the kicker at the end.

(SPOILER, just like the rest of this post) Apparently this Babylon world is a “three dimensional torus”. I followed some laymans explanations of what a torus is, and then gave up. (What I got was a few examples (1) imagine being walking along the inside of a donut, but in three dimensions. Or (2) basically portal walls at some unspecified, finite point in all directions. Or (3) a video game where going off the right brings you back to the left.). Thank you Ted for the TIL.



This is a hilarious story about the ego and contempt of overwhelming intellectualism of a superhuman benefitting from a super-drug. The lessons here are:

  1. Overwhelming intelligence can create unexpected advantages when gaming the system
  2. But overwhelming intellectual power is not invincible
  3. You can know everything in the world but still have various goals and pursuits.

One theme is the classic “intellectualism vs. utilitarianism” debate of Leon (main character) vs. Reynolds (antagonist/foil). Leon advances intellectualism for the sake intellectual curiosity, while Reynolds does it for utilitarian purposes. Leon’s intellectual pursuit seems somewhat selfish and short-sighted at first. However, Reynold’s utilitarian approach goes down a hole of moral ambiguity and despotic behavior in an effort to make the world a better place. It doesn’t seem to be worth it. This is a common theme!

The fun parts are the crazy mind-chess going on, where I think, you think, I think you’re going to do XYZ. Leon plays against amateurs in the real world, but his demise is his ego, as he walks unprepared into a trap.


Division by Zero

“Division by Zero”  is a tragic story of a woman who’s mentally tortured by her inability to resolve a mathematical inconsistency that undermines all of arithmetic.

The story strikes at the essence of mathematics. It is the theoretical, not the experimental that is interesting. It is the self consistent universe that creates 1+1=2 and the litany of explanations of the universe that follow.

“She, like many, had always thought that mathematics did not derive its meaning from the universe, but rather imposed some meaning onto the universe […] But no more. Mathematics was inconsistent […] and a formal theory was nothing if not consistent. Math was empirical, no more than that, and it held no interest for her. 

I think it also hits hard at the inability for people to feel the way another feels when their essence is be shook to their core. The difference between sympathy and empathy is often brought up in stories (sympathy means you understand another’s feelings, empathy is when you feel their feelings), but this one turns it on it’s head. The man’s empathy becomes his reason to let go rather than stay.

He opened his mouth to say that he knew exactly what she meant, that he had felt the same things as she. But he stopped himself: for this was an empathy that separated rather than united them, and he couldn’t tell her that.


[My Top 3] Story of your Life

I don’t think this was one of the top in the beginning, because I didn’t really get it. After reading some summaries, this is brilliant and beautiful in a way difficult to explain (other than through the words of the story itself).

In “Story of your Life”, Louise knows her daughter will die at 25 before her daughter is conceived. She knows the future from studying an alien language that ties past, present, and future into one. But instead of fighting her future, she proceeds to conceive her daughter, and watches her die.

The premise is elegant, and the execution is beautiful. I could read this over and over and not get tired. In a weird way, heptapod semagrams are similar to books in that you are engaging with a the future is set in stone. Why read a book when you already know the future exists? The act of a book being read is just as important as it’s existence.

For the heptapods, all language was performative. Instead of using language to inform, they used language to actualize. Sure, heptapods already knew what would be said in any conversation; but in order for their knowledge to be true, the conversation would have to take place.

Just like the headliner Ken Liu’s short stories (“Paper Menagerie”), this is by far the most beautiful and emotional of the collection.

An alternative explanation I read is that there is no time travel/precognition, but the heptapod language allowed Louise to tell her story in a way where past, present and future are interconnected. This is a very good article and highly recommend.

This is the source material for the 2016 movie Arrival.


Seventy-Two Letters

InSeventy-Two Letters Stratton lives in a world resembling 19th century Britain, but where automata (robots) can be given instructions with a written seventy-two letter code. He is a scientist on the verge of creating robots that can do skilled labor. This gets everyone scared of self-programming automata taking their jobs.

But what’s scarier is that politicians see the technology behind skilled robots as a path to genetically engineer humans. Chiang draws from modern themes such as AI taking away jobs, intersection between religion and programming, and ethical dilemmas of genetic engineering and reproduces them in an entirely alternate universe, similar to post-industrial revolution Britain.

What a weird but fantastical story. For me, “Seventy-Two Letters” was much better during my second and more detailed read.


The Evolution of Human Science

“The Evolution of Human Science” is a journal article about a superior intellectual species (metahumans) and its’ relationship with humans. Metahumans are able to neural link, and therefore have advanced science beyond any human could hope to achieve – therefore human science simply becomes reverse-engineering phenomena discovered by metahumans.

And this is “fine” to the metahumans, because this is how it should be. And this is no different than humans discovering the natural world. Basically science is not about the limits of what exists, but the steady discovery by the human species. Relatively straightforward.

No one denies the many benefits of metahuman science, but one of its costs to human researchers was the realization that they would likely never make an original contribution to science again. Some left the field altogether, but those who stayed shifted their attention away from original research and toward hermeneutics: interpreting the scientific work of metahumans.


[My Top 3] Hell is the Absence of God

This one is a fun story about faith.

Hell is the Absence of God” takes place in an almost normal world, but where heaven and hell have physical manifestations. Divine visitations by angels spread miracles and tragedies like pixie dust. People’s souls visibly rise or sink into heaven and hell, respectively, when they die.

The story explores individuals’ motivations for believing in god, whether it be selfish, misguided, true worship, or influenced by experiencing a miracle. Miracle sightings and statistics are rigorously recorded and analyzed – however in the end miracles are miracles, random and inexplicable.

I like it because it is fun, but deep. Nobody knows why anything happens, nobody really cares, but if any one thing is true, “Hell is the Absence of God”.


[My Top 3] Liking what you See

Liking what you see” is an innovative meta-documentary discussing calliagnosia, a procedure to make one unable to perceive beauty.

If there were a world where beauty were equalized, what would that mean? Individuals with natural advantages around beauty ould lose them. Advertisements would not be able abuse “beauty” as a magical spell to make people more likely to buy a product. Is this a world we could handle?

Experiments using neurostat allowed researchers to identify the neurological circuit responsible for perceiving beauty in faces, and thus essentially invent calliagnosia.

The narrative explores the limits to which we would be willing to go down this train of thought. If we want to remove beauty, why not pleasure in sound or the ability to recognize others? The latter removes our ability to be manipulated by advertisements, but also reduces our quality of life significantly.

The overarching questions becomes: where do we draw the line for evening the playing field? Is it up to an institution to enforce these kinds of restrictions? Why should they have the power to do it? This comes close to philosophies around whether you trust the institution to do the right thing for you, or whether you believe in an individual’s freedom and prerogative.

This is just the latest example of political correctness run amok. The people advocating calli are well-intentioned, but what they’re doing is infantilizing us. The very notion that beauty is something we need to be protected from is insulting.

The subjects of the documentary are a perfect mix of naive, unreliable, and thoughtful with a peek into their own lives. Chiang has taken a novel style and executed perfectly in this story.

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Even though some of Chiang’s stories are available online, I highly recommend buying or borrowing the book. I’ve gotten two full reads from it already, and am certain to come back to it many times in the future!


Mistborn’s study of religion seems to reflect Sanderson’s exploration of his own faith

The Mistborn series was Brandon Sanderson’s biggest hit… (before the Stormlight Archives blew it out of the water.)

But the series is still very good, and showed off Sanderson’s ability to create a beautiful world, fun dialogue, and an interesting magic system. Most brilliantly, it showed off Sanderson’s ability to create a crazy story arc that unwraps into a huge, sprawling plot and wraps itself back up again with a tiny bow on top.

That being said, the most interesting thing to me in Mistborn (and Sanderson) is around Religion.

Mistborn and Sanderson and Religion

Sanderson is a Mormon, which gives light to some patterns in his writing. You can see him teasing the edge of normal adult themes but the books stay mostly PG. His action is brilliant, but his conversations around romance and relationships have a child-like innocence.

The man seems to have a constant, intellectual struggle with his own relationship with the LDS (Latter Day Saints), and is open about it in his blog post reflecting on JK Rowling’s revelation of Dumbledore’s sexuality. This blog post is so, so characteristic of his open-minded writing style, and makes me appreciate that his character and his books are cut from the same cloth.

How much of his struggles are in the mind of Sazed? How does he think about featuring socially liberal characters and undergoing an study of hundreds of theoretical religions?

“It sounds to me, young one,” Haddek said, “that you’re searching for something that cannot be found.” “The truth?” Sazed said. “No,” Haddek replied. “A religion that requires no faith of its believers.”

I can’t help but wonder if Sazed’s intellectual, dispassionate study of religions around the world parallel’s Sanderson’s own attempt to question but come to terms with the Mormon Church.

How had Sazed become the one that people came to with their problems? Couldn’t they sense that he was simply a hypocrite, capable of formulating answers that sounded good, yet incapable of following his own advice? He felt lost. He felt a weight, squeezing him, telling him to simply give up.

In general, the entire series toys with the idea and roles religion and prophecy play in our lives. The idea of religious idols getting twisted and transformed by its practitioners is a consistent theme across the three books. Whether it be the Lord Ruler, the Survivor, the Survivor of the Flames, or the capital B big religion, they all come with their illusion of legitimacy, flaws, and fights between those of the faith.

I think Sanderson is the best fantasy author of this decade, and the way he approaches faith in his books simply makes me respect him even more.

A toast to the Liu’s “The Paper Menagerie and Other Stories”

24885533This Ken Liu guy is good.

Historical fiction and science fiction are similar in that they allow us to live in a world that is not ours to experience. It has either passed or doesn’t exist.

Liu blends myths, historical fiction, and science fiction in a series of cutting stories that take you down a river of emotions. Some navigate you through rapids with jagged rocks, others a tranquil flow of poetry, and some are sudden waterfalls that force you to put down the book to rest your heart.

The fifteen stories from The Paper Menagerie & Other Stories show inspiration from across the board, from a spaceship powered by a solar sail to the general Guan Yu of the Three Kingdoms; from Chinese-American railroad workers in the late 1800s to the manifestation of a physical soul made of ice; from the moral decision of deciding on eternal life, to ethical dilemmas in American bases in Taiwan combating Communism in the 1950s.

The headliner is “The Paper Menagerie” short story from 2011 (available publicly), but that is just a teaser to the ride. It’s a quick read, but be warned – it will be difficult to keep the tears in. This especially hit home for me as I grew up learning english, but english was a difficult second language for my parents.

The stories can be sobering. Sometimes the stories can be “[…] like a gentle kitten is licking the inside of my heart.”

I think the writing is similar to the imagination of the Three Body Problem Trilogy (especially Death’s End) or the beauty of Kalanithi’s When Breath Becomes Air”. Liu is known as the translator for the TBP trilogy but here he shows his dynamism in ideas.
Even if you’ve never read either, give The Paper Menagerie a shot.